Good Friday

Permelia and Madeline, our first duck ladies

Today is Good Friday, when we mark Jesus’ death and burial. This morning I remember again that the soul's "dark night" is a part of the human condition. I reflect on desperation and despair. My capacity to experience despair is a gift; through it I am transformed. Jesus said, "You must be born again." (John 3:7). The ability to shift from despair to hope is how I get the strength to live life whatever the daily deaths I might face.

Agenda today:

1. Darkness to Hope Meditation

2. Read "Root and Ritual

3. Bake hot cross buns

1. Darkness to Hope Meditation:

Everyone has periods and circumstances of despair. I remember quite clearly when I was laying in the emergency room on a table, with broken ribs and shoulder, and everyone left, probably to help someone else. I had been strong until then, but during that 45 minutes when I was alone I succumbed to self-pity, pain, and loneliness pretty quickly.

Meditate on that feeling: Remember, for a few minutes, what it's like to be in misery - feeling alone, feeling no connection to Spirit. "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" Hold that feeling and take several slow breaths.

Then shift, and remember that you have experienced great joy, and remember that you will again; discover again a connection to the Divine. Relax into a feeling of light and hope. Feel a glow slowly fill you, as dawn fills the sky, and then extend light to family, to friends, to neighbors, to strangers, and to all others who are in darkness now. 

2. Read "Root and Ritual":

Today I'm reading again from "Root and Ritual: Timeless Ways to Connect to Land, Lineage, Community, and the Self," by Becca Piastrelli (2021).  in January I started reading from Part 4: Self: "As much work as we do to nourish our roots with the natural world, with those who came before us, and with the community that surrounds us, if we do not take a thorough and lasting look at our relationship with our own self, we will rarely feel connected anywhere else in our life." 

Becca talks about a "seasonal way of living"  that includes moving slowly, leaning in to intuition, and listening to your body's needs. She says I don't have to be disciplined or in control, but rather clear on my intentions and devoted to the process. I like that thought!

Chapter 11 is You Are Worthy. "Living from a place of worthiness does not happen overnight. More often than not, the journey to finding belonging is abstract, imperfect, and full of surprises. But when you devote yourself to creating a life of connection that stirs your soul, uplifts the self, and honors the world around you the practice becomes the pleasure".

I read these words in January, and reading them again now, at the start of spring, has given me a new insight: I'm truly blessed to live this life - serving my community, caring for my grandkids, growing in wisdom with my friends. I am deeply connected and I belong here.

3. Bake hot cross buns:

The hot cross bun is probably the oldest of the many English buns. It was originally eaten only on Good Friday. In the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries street cries were commonly heard on Good Friday:

"Hot cross buns, hot cross buns, 

One a penny, two a penny, hot cross buns!”

You are supposed to keep one bun all year to insure that all the bread you bake is perfect (and as a charm against shipwreck). 

Ingredients:

• 1-1/2 c. milk
• 3-1/2 Tbsp. unsalted butter
• 4-1/2 c. bread flour (or all purpose) 
• 3 tsp. instant or rapid rise yeast (1-1/2 packets)
• 1/2 c. sugar
• 2 tsp. cinnamon
• 1/2 tsp. each nutmeg and allspice
• 1/4 tsp. cloves
• 1/2 tsp. salt
• 1 egg
• 1-1/2 c. sultanas or dried cranberries
• zest from 1 - 2 oranges

Crosses, glaze, frosting:

• 
  1/2 cup white flour
• 5 Tbsp. water
• 1 Tbsp. apricot jam
• 2 tsp. water
• powdered sugar frosting (optional)

Yield: 1-dozen buns-

1- Warm the milk and melt the butter, then leave to cool. Place 4-1/4 c. of the flour, and the yeast, sugar, spices, and salt in a stand-mixer bowl. Briefly mix with a dough hook.

2- Add melted butter, warmed milk, egg, sultanas and zest. Mix until a smooth elastic dough forms - about 5 minutes on Speed 2 of standmixer. After 1 minute, add an extra 1/4 c. of flour if required, just enough so dough comes away from side of bowl when mixing and doesn't stick to your fingers. Do a window-pane test to see if the dough is kneaded enough - it should stretch without breaking.

3- Leave the dough in the bowl, cover with cling wrap and place in a warm place to rise until doubled in size, 1 to 1 1/2 hours.

4- Line a 9 x 13" tray with baking paper that overhangs the edges. Remove cling wrap and punch the dough down.

Dust board with flour, dump out the dough, and shape into a log. Cut into 12 equal pieces.

5- Take one piece, press flattish, then use your fingers to gather into a ball, and roll the dough briefly to smooth. (This stretches the dough on one side giving a nice smooth surface. Place the ball with the smooth side up on the tray. Repeat with remaining dough, lining them up 3 x 4.

6- Spray a piece of cling wrap lightly with oil, then loosely place over the pan. Return to a warm place and let rise for 30 - 45 minutes (less than double in size).

7- Preheat oven to 350°F. Mix flour and water for the crosses into a thick, but runny paste forms (not too thick or it will bake hard). Spoon into a piping bag or small ziplock bag, then snip corner. 

8- Remove the cling wrap and slowly pipe crosses onto the buns. Bake for 22 minutes, or until the surface is a deep golden brown.

9- Place jam and water in a small saucepan over low, to melt for the glaze. 

Remove buns from oven. Use overhang to lift buns onto a cooling rack. Brush with jam mixture while warm, and frost if desired.