Mindful of Needs

Today I finally feel like I am on the mend and caught up with life.

Agenda:
1. Ongo Journal
2. Spiritual growth intention

1. Ongo Journal:

I'm taking a 12-week non-violent communication class. This week I've been looking at Mindfulness of Needs. The need that jumps out at me today is for growth, evolution, and progress.

Right now I feel impatience. I want the end result NOW.

The book says, "Sometimes when we connect to a particular need, we find that it stirs up pain or discomfort. ... Rather than feeling a sense of settling or peace when connecting to that need, we touch impatience, frustration, or wounding." It goes on to say this might be an Unmet Need, one that I need to get to know with curiosity, and awareness of beliefs and thoughts surrounding this need.

Yep, I do feel a kind of despair that I haven't evolved further yet - that I'm such a slow learner, or maybe I've peaked and won't grow further. I will never be a wise woman, or a true leader, or an artist, or a published writer. I have failed to communicate my passion.

The work I need to do is deep study, practice, openness, and inviting an accepting community. And when I have satisfied this need I will feel wise and complete.

2. Spiritual growth intention:
I've decided that the practice I will do this week for spiritual growth is to set a small daily intention.

Today: I intend to be open with the Earthcare Action group, and share specific ways we might stretch our actions this fall. I will let go of anxiety or impatience and be in the moment with the needs of the group.